Two Pink Lines

Wednesday January 13, 2016

Dear Adam,

Hey sweet boy! We’re almost 30 weeks along! Last week, we got to see you again at Dr. Rivera’s office. You were hiding your face again, BUT you were playing with your hands and even gave us a peace sign! You make me smile.

Over a year ago, we revised our baby plan… again (Plan D or E, maybe?? Haha)… and decided we’d try to get pregnant late 2015 and have a fall 2016 baby. I knew I’d be spending most of 2015 recording “Welcome Home” with your “Uncle” Trey (your mom is one half of a super cool indie-folk band, Olive & Willis!) Well, in March, your dad lost his job in oil and gas (along with thousands of other Houstonians), and made a risky switch into real estate. It was risky because he would be in a very long training program and I only work part time at Little Eclectic House (your Mimi’s shop!) and am a musician on the weekends… It would definitely cost us. We really thought about our baby plan and decided we should / could still stick with the plan as we were hopeful about the potential of his new job. In May, we celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary. In June, we realized that in order to stick with our plan, we were just about 5-6 months out from our hopeful pregnancy, so maybe we should *start* practicing then because it would probably take a few months. 😉 Well… just ONE MONTH LATER in July, I found out I was pregnant with YOU!! Your dad was still very early in his training and I was not finished recording Welcome Home, but we were thrilled nonetheless!! Here’s how I found out…

It was Monday, July 20th. I had a really busy work weekend including a City Centre gig that Sunday night. Mondays and Tuesdays are my “weekend” / my days off, and at that time, I would go to a hot yoga class each of those days. So Monday morning I woke up and went to my favorite hot yoga class with Josie. I remember it feeling WAY hotter than normal and feeling like I was sweating gallons. I had been taking these classes regularly for a year and was typically conditioned to it, so I just figured they had cranked the heater up or something. Also, there was a pregnant lady in the row behind me and I was mesmerized by her ability to modify the poses and still practice! I watched her the whole time.

After class, I sat in my car and opened up the calendar app on my phone and did some counting. When I got to 30 days and was still counting, well, I really can’t describe that feeling, but it still contained doubt and disbelief. I drove my sweaty self to HEB and bought a protein cookie, laundry detergent, and a box of pregnancy tests. I hurried home and OF COURSE didn’t have to go to the bathroom because I had just sweat out all of my bodily fluids. I sat on the edge of our bathtub chugging water and reading and re-reading the instructions on the pregnancy test box (like I had never taken one). Finally, I was able to take the first test. I had my timer opened on my phone for the three-minute window I wasn’t supposed to look at the test. (Really??) Well, within like 5 seconds, the first pink line (the pregnant line) was BRIGHT hot pink! Wait a minute… I’ve never seen two lines before. Maybe I should still wait all three minutes? Could this line go away within three minutes? I sat there for an eternity (three minutes) staring at the hot pink first line and IT DID NOT GO AWAY!

I walked out of the bathroom and just sat on the edge of the bathtub with no emotion for about a minute or two and then all of a sudden: joy, excitement, fear, amazement, and gratitude all hit me at once and I got on my knees and cried and prayed. You had just made me a MOM!!! I begged God to help me be a good mom to you. I began to pray over my labor and delivery (please be nice to me!) and even pray over your life – that you would be kind and bold and brave and that you would stand up for what’s right and fight for justice. That you would have good friends and that you would be a good friend. That you would know God early and recognize His voice.

When I could finally stand up, I came up with a plan to tell your dad that night when he got home from work! I’ll write about that next!

(And later that afternoon, I sure did take the other test in the box just to make sure!)

Oh sweet boy, how I love you. You’ve brought so much joy to us already!

Love you forever,
Mom

3 comments

Lezlie - January 14, 2016 - 7:24 pm

You made me cry!!!!
Love this and love you!
Can’t wait for Adam!
Love you,
Mom

Ma - January 15, 2016 - 8:12 am

What a wonderful chapter. I can hardly wait for the next one. Love you.

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